Dito lang ako sa bahay ngaung summer... a hundred miles away from the university and a million miles away from my life as a student. Para akong baboy sa bahay: kain, tulog, nuod ng tv... patabain talaga! Well, I kinda need it and I feel that I deserve it. The schoolyear was a hectic one and I need a break.

April 18. just another summer morning. ganon talaga di ba pag summer, hindi mo na alam kung anong araw na, anong petsa. that's just the way it goes. But when I turned the TV on CNN (from my regular channel-surfing ritual), I read the news that the worse campus shooting happened. It was in Virginia, literally half-way around the world from my beautiful town of Pagbilao, Quezon. I was shocked, I didn't thought it will be that big of a deal. Pero hindi siya small time. Eto na to. And the news rocked the world.

I was specially affected because the victims, some 30 of them, are just like me. I see myself in them struggling day by day in the campus, feeding their brains with statistics, vector mechanics, dalumat ni Rizal and what not. They were just like me... And their young lives were silenced instantly. I really see myself in them... dreams fading away just like that.

Nakatutok ako sa CNN para sa blow-by-blow-by-blow accounts of the shooting. It was unreal. The dormitories, the classrooms, the university layout... It was really a insanely good resemblance of UP! It's insane. I'm making that big of a deal in this global issue...

Looking at it, naisip, what if... just what if... it happened to me?

Not the shooting, but the sudden death. What will the people think of me? Hala! I bet lalabas dyan ang issue ng "personal life" chorva ko sa kalilayan. hehe. The issue is not an issue at all. Ma-sikreto lang akong tao kaya ganon. Mahilig akong magtago ng mga bagay-bagay.

Kaya ayun, i'm updating this blog to 'document' the last couple of years or so in my life. hehe... so that people will realize that i'm living a wonderful life right now. nothing as dramatic as what they would think. i'm just a simple boy, living simple dreams. (:

peace!